LITY❤️ Lord I Thank You
LITY: Lord I Thank You is a faith-based podcast that invites listeners into a daily rhythm of gratitude, healing, and truth. Hosted by Autumn—author, speaker, and transformation coach—each episode offers real talk, raw prayer, and redemptive insight for women navigating emotional overwhelm, spiritual disconnect, or the quiet ache of feeling unseen.
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LITY❤️ Lord I Thank You
Navigating Expectations, Self-Worth, and Relationships: A Personal Journey
There comes a time when the weight of expectations and the struggle to uphold self-worth becomes a battle. I'm going to take you through some deeply personal experiences that speak to this human struggle, my disappointments, my resolve to better protect my heart, and my choice to no longer entertain anyone's toxic behavior. You'll get to hear about the lessons I've taken from these experiences and the promises I've made to myself.
In the second part of our journey, we'll explore the significance of intentionality in our relationships, and how important it is to be open to the perspectives of others. I'll share how I found strength in letting go of temporary fixes, and how placing trust in God during times of confusion led me to clarity. We'll talk about the incredible power that you can experience when you ask God for help in navigating new phases of life. Tune in if you're ready to reflect, get inspired, and understand how paramount it is to shield your heart, even as you continue to love others deeply.
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Hey, hey, hey, it's your girl, autumn CEO and owner of Litty, known as Lord Eye. Thank you, hey, thank you for tuning in. I pray the words that come out of my mouth be a blessing to you in more ways than one. Let me get into it. I don't even know what I'm going to title this or what even will come out of this podcast, but I just wanted to express my concerns as far as how things are moving, how things are shifting, how lives are forever being changed, and there is let me put it this way what's concerning to me is that people are just moving, right. They're moving without thinking.
Speaker 1:I've always been a thinker. I've always wanted to make sure that, for example, even an argument before I speak, I'll think about all the things that have been stated to me, to first see if there was something that I did in the situation to cause whatever reaction, and then to make sure that, whatever I was going to say, I said it strategically, meaning I was thinking about a person's feelings, where they were mentally giving the benefit of the doubt that you really could have been hurt, disappointed, upset, whatever. What's amazing to me, though, is that I am learning that I can no longer look at people the same. I can no longer look at people and expect them to be me. I can't. What I've learned recently is that, should be honest, a person doesn't even understand what someone goes through once they close their doors. They don't Once you have that moment by yourself. People really don't understand what you go through. They only know and understand what they get from you, how you treat them and how you make them feel In whatever capacity that they may need you, but people really don't take into consideration the other individual. It's all about what I want, what I need right now and what I feel you should be doing for me, which is fine, because there is a point of where I've heard a lot of people say I'm going to be selfish, I'm going to do these things for me. Why are you being selfish, though? Just doing Doing because you love yourself enough. It's not selfish Doing.
Speaker 1:What selfish is is when you expect a person to always show up for you within the same capacity that they could have had yesterday, not understanding that today could be different. Today could be different. My mental capacity yesterday might have been able to handle your issues, somebody else's issues, my mama's issues, my kids' issues. It could have been that day, but today just might not be that day, and we have gotten so accustomed and used to and that's the selfish part of it when, no matter what I do, when I need you, I need you to show up for me. And unfortunately, let me just tell you the way. Life is life and that shit don't happen, no more. It doesn't.
Speaker 1:I can recall the time that, hey, you know, when you talk to people, they put on a persona that I'm okay, I'm here, I'm here, I'm here, but now ain't nobody putting on that fake shit. They're not. I'm sorry, they're just not. I will speak for myself when I say I'm no longer angry, I no longer question, I'm no longer upset.
Speaker 1:What I am is truly disappointed. I'm disappointed in myself Ha, you thought I was going to say somebody else. No, I'm disappointed in myself because I've made certain promises to autumn that I personally see Waved, I waved, I waved certain things. I waved some things that I knew, that I made a promise to me that I would not allow anyone else, anyone else that came into my life at a certain point, take advantage of certain things, and one of them, and the biggest thing, is my heart. It's my heart, because you got to know that the intent is always in the beginning. It's always a good intent.
Speaker 1:We meet people with the intention of hoping that there's going to be something out of this that's successful. You don't go into friendships, relationships and different situations assuming the worst all the time. You don't. It just doesn't happen. But where I messed up is I broke promises to myself, and I've had to, over the course of the last six months, apologize to myself over and over and over.
Speaker 1:Until now I am at the point where I'm no longer renewing subscriptions to anybody's bullshit or toxic waste. I'm not. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm over it. I'm all set. Yep, I'm all set. It's amazing to me how you can. I've been supportive, I've encouraged, uplifted, I've shown up in ways that I can. What I don't do, though, is overextend myself and make people assume or think that I have the capacity or can do certain things that I know I can. That I don't do, but I genuinely show up because this is me. I have a big ass heart, and sometimes having a heart can be a blessing and a curse in the same damn time. It can be, because if you're not careful, you end up shattering it over and over and over, until it's down to the point that you just stopped feeling. You become numb. You become numb.
Speaker 1:I also realized, and I've noticed, that you could do a million things for people a million and it's that one time that they get brave enough to basically tell you you ain't did shit and ain't shit because you didn't move the way that they felt you should have moved, you didn't do what they felt you should do or you didn't say what they expected you to say in that very moment. So it ends up being forget everything else, we're going to just focus on this one time that, let's be honest, did you think about the other person may have something going on? Did you think about the other person may have been up all night fighting with themselves and didn't even have anybody to talk to? Did you think about the times that that person might have called you because they needed you to show up for them and you weren't available? Did you think about, in that very moment, that person could be fighting for their damn life and you just so consumed and worried about you that you disregard all of the good that came before that. So I made a conscious decision today.
Speaker 1:Today is now, the 12th of November, I made a conscious decision that I am fighting and I'm going to continue to fight like hell to not change my heart, because somebody and others are worthy of everything that I am and are worthy to receive genuine love, care and respect. I went for years, years, years, not saying things, not responding to people, no matter how they treated me, because I still wanted to respect their feelings, although they said forget my feelings. I got to get this off my chest and let me say this, and I would literally suffer in silence for years because I didn't want to hurt people's feelings. Now, what I did do is I still had a way of expressing myself and getting my point across, but I was always conscious, because respect is a big thing for me. It's huge.
Speaker 1:But now if you feel you could come to me and tell me everything that you feel I may have done to you, then, oh, baby, you better be ready to receive the feedback that I'm going to give you. I'm no longer going to hurt myself to protect others. I am going to be free. And if every day of my life, the rest of my life that I have on this earth, is spending it by myself, and it's only me and God. I will take that in a heartbeat and run and never look back, because when I tell you at this very moment, my mental capacity alone is basically exhausted. It's exhausted. It's like one of those things where I'm sitting around and I'm thinking like, are you serious, like people's actions and the things that people have said and the people I've tried to protect, going out of my way for making sacrifices, showing up, and then for a person to turn right around in that instant and basically in so many words, make you feel like you ain't shit. I'm awesome, because what I know and what God knows is that my worth, I'm a very, very, very, very valuable person, very valuable. I might not be able to give the money and I can't do the trips and all this stuff right now, but when that day shows up again, I'm going to live my life without expecting others to join me. I'm not going to do it anymore. I am on a different path, and this path is called learning to cope by yourself. Learning to cope by yourself, the.
Speaker 1:I've called people, I've reached out. I've no answer. No, nothing, no, next day, you good Nothing. So I've stopped doing it too. I've stopped being the first to initiate. I stopped being the one calling, I stopped being the one texting. Let me see how many people really text me. Let me see how many people don't have my number that'll go to the lengths of my inbox. Or don't see me post on social media and reach out to me and say hey, I'm just checking on you. You good, the crazy party is. I call it my social media family. We'll definitely check on me to see there ain't no content. You good, keep going, don't give up, don't quit. You got this. Greater is in.
Speaker 1:I get all kind of all that, but the ones that I've stood 10 toes down for, I don't get shit. But, lord, I thank you. Lord, I thank you, lord, I thank you that I am no longer moved by people. I used to just cut people off and you would never know what you did to me. I would get text and I would never read them because I didn't want to say what I really being honest. I didn't want to say what I really felt about that individual in that moment, whatever the situation was. But now I say exactly how I feel, no filters and, respectfully, if you don't like it, leave me alone. Leave me alone, go your way and I'll go my way, because what anybody has to know is that God don't play about me, and if you believe in God, like I do, he don't play about you either.
Speaker 1:So, as I'm sitting in this space, in this different space where I thought it might have been a lonely space, it's not. It's not. It's a cleansing space. It's a place that I'm becoming free. It's a place where God is literally showing me, faster than I've ever experienced in life, who people are, who people really are, how they really feel about me. And guess what I'm doing? I'm embracing it and accepting it and moving forward.
Speaker 1:As such, I've decided to take my life back. I am no longer going to wait for others. I am going to move as I want to move. I will do as I want to do and I will say whatever it is that I feel like I need to say in order for me to be free. I'm no longer in bondage. I am no longer going to care about one's feelings before I first care about myself. I'm not protecting anybody. I am going to protect autumn. I'm going to protect my feelings, my heart, my thoughts, my mental capacity before I even attempt to help save someone else going forward. I only get one life, one, and my life has been spared.
Speaker 1:Lord, I thank you so many times. God has come through for me so many times and even at this age and at this stage of my life, I should be so much further, so much further. But I don't regret the lessons learned, but what I am doing, it's exercising my right to move forward Without the distractions of others. So those that have benefited, those have gained, those that have used me, those who have taken advantage of me, thank you. I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart, because I would never have gotten to this point, to where I can sincerely focus on me. My focus, my energy, my time is on me.
Speaker 1:I'm back to a lot of times now being by myself, going out by myself, treating myself to breakfast, sitting there, listening to my music, not bothering people looking around, thinking no, this may be probably one of the realest podcast that I have done, speaking from my heart. My heart is healing. I am asking God to renew it. I am asking God to help me navigate through this season of my life, because it's a tough one. It's a tough one, it's a tough one. And then the funny thing is is that I was so used to repeating Certain things and and going through the same thing over and over and getting the same result To this is totally different.
Speaker 1:I guess it is a true saying that Everybody can't go on the journey that he has for me. Let me say that again for you. Everybody can't go on the journey that God has for you. They can't. And at this point in my life I guess he said, oh, I'm not going to allow it, I'm gonna flush it quick, quick, y'all. And it's happening Second by second, day over day, minute by minute.
Speaker 1:I am in a pod. I am in a pod and certain things, because what I am is a good person. My intentions is never to hurt anyone purposely. But I also know that because I've been taken advantage of, disrespected, discarded, my feelings don't matter, even when I respond back and I say what I feel. I think it's a point now that individuals just don't know how to come back, and I'm okay with that. I want everybody to live and be well, because I got one life, y'all. We get one shot at this and we out here acting like we got a million damn lives. We got one life and then it's over until we get to the next phase of life. But here on earth we only got one chance.
Speaker 1:So, as I'm encouraging myself, I won't be selfish to encourage you as well. Do what's best for you without regret. Do whatever it is that makes you happy. Laugh on purpose. Be intentional with your time. Let go of temporary situations. Let go of things that only will fix it temporarily. Say what you feel and mean what you say. But I also want to remind you be okay now. Be okay and be open to receive what the other person may have to say in return.
Speaker 1:In this season, in this very moment, I just have to trust God with everything that I have, because I am in a space that is feeling like an unknown territory, almost to the point that I'm like I don't know that I'm welcome here because I'm so used to the same cycles. So I no longer make excuses, I'm no longer being apologetic, but I am going to live unapologetically, going forward. I wish everyone the best. I hope this message finds you at a place that you're confused, you're lonely, you're not understanding why, how you got here. This is really like a purging season. God ain't playing, he is applying pressure. He's applying pressure to some of us those that get it get it and those that don't. I'm going to be honest. I pray this time that you just get it and you don't have to go through all these lessons that I've had to go through lately. But I will say this One of my favorite scriptures is Proverbs 3-4-7.
Speaker 1:Listen to the Lord with all your heart, don't lean into your own understanding, and all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your path. With that being said, I am done. I am done ranting. You can find me on all the major platforms Spotify, apple, amazon Music, fm, heart Radio on my every major platform. Be blessed y'all. This is a new season and if you know anything like me, ask God daily, second by seconds. Lord, help me to navigate in this season. Litty Lord, I thank you.